lieutenantantichrist | [18] [anon text] - "It Doesn't Unbang Your Mom."

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[18] [anon text] - "It Doesn't Unbang Your Mom."

Hey. It's too hot to do anything today, so you might as well talk.

What's the worst thing anybody ever did to you?

[That comes first. It's a minute or so before the rest follows.]

What would the dirtbag have to do to make you forgive them?

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Used my love for them to blind me to the fact that they never cared about me and only saw me as a tool.

I'll never forgive them.

[There's a pause before the reply.]

How did you end up figuring it out?

A part of me always knew.

By the time I arrived here, I knew for sure. It's complicated. I confronted them about it, long before then. It was the proof I needed that they didn't love me. I don't think they can love anyone.

When I figured it out, I was angry at myself.

What makes me angrier is the fact that I still love them.

People say that. Then sometimes you gotta admit, no, you never fucking saw it coming. Not in a million years.

If they're the kind of asshole who'd backstab and use you, and you know they're some kind of psycho, how the hell could you still love them?

No, I knew. There are plenty of things in my life I never saw coming, but this isn't one of them.

But saying how I knew would give me away to anyone paying attention.

If it was easy to stop loving them, I would. I don't want to. It makes me feel sick.

Then you should've stopped it. That's your damn job, isn't it?

A son of a bitch who betrayed you isn't worth your attention anymore. They never gave a damn for you, you stop giving a damn about them. Anyone who was using you and laughing at you behind your back, they don't deserve anything but contempt.

If you're capable of making a switch that quickly, then you're better off than me.

I was this person's lover for a long time. It's not so easy for me.

If they're an asshole enough to do that to you, then they were always an asshole. you fucking forget them.

Cheating girlfriend, huh.

If things were that simple I wouldn't be having this conversation with you at all. I would have gotten over it years ago.

[He's going to ignore the cheating girlfriend comment because he doesn't know what to say in response to it.

Dante was sure as hell not his girlfriend.]

They'd have to be pretty fucking great to be worth hanging onto so long, and frankly they don't sound like it.

[It's better to hate them. Much, much better.]

Maybe you're right. I tried leaving once before but it didn't end well for me. I never did get out.

I just came here.

[Well that sure sounds a lot less like a cheating girlfriend and more like "what the hell is your life."]

Was she your girlfriend or your cult leader?

[It was sounding pretty damn Stockholmy to begin with.]

She was never my girlfriend.

[Oh, uh, he didn't mean to let the gender slip like that.]

[Blake just made that assumption.]

Cult leader, then. Or kidnapper. Started getting fuzzy feelings when she didn't shoot you in the head?

[It was the right assumption! And now Greed's confirmed that, whoops.]

Shoot me in the head? Nothing like that happened. It wasn't a kidnapping, either.

You said you tried to skip town and you couldn't.

Doesn't sound like a normal friendly situation. Sounds like she called all the shots.

I was caught when I tried to leave.

But I'm not going to deny that I had little control of the situation.

Somebody you say you loved, who used you for shit and wouldn't let you leave.

Whatever the relationship was, it's long past time to call the fucking cops.

The police wouldn't help someone like me.

It doesn't matter anyway because she's not here.

It doesn't matter who you are. That's what police are for.

You haven't forgotten her, though.

That may be true, but I

There's nothing they could do. I can't get into it.

I'll never forget her.

Is she the one who told you that?

Whatever the fuck this place is, it means you got away from the crazy bitch. That means you have your own damn life now.

No, she never said anything like that to me.

I believe it is best to say we come from very different worlds in a literal sense and to leave it at that.

[There's a pronounced pause as he takes in the second part.]

Yeah. I guess I did.

But she kept you around, even when you didn't want to be.

Yeah, I'm starting to get used to hearing that. Sounds like you're from someplace almost fucked up enough to be the real world.

So here you are. Here's your chance to leave the crazy bitch behind.

Funny you would say I don't live in the real world. My world is the real world to me.

But you're right. She's not here. She's never been here.

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