[It takes a second for Yusuke to get what Blake means. His expression sobers when he does, and another long stretch of silence follows, during which he mulls over what to say. So the old man thinks this place is something like purgatory, huh. That he was sent here because of what he'd done. He hadn't missed what Blake had said as he was describing his own idea of what Hell might be - "nobody's life on the line", "no reasons to do what it takes". "Nothing to do but be you". Does that mean that whatever it was that Blake had done, it was done while he was on the job? Given that the old man is a cop, the implications of that don't settle well with Yusuke at all - he's supposed to be the good guy, so what the hell did he do a "bad thing" for?
But then Yusuke thinks of the hospital, and how prepared he'd been to knock out every single person there in order to suss out the Doctor before his virus could wipe out the entire building - how prepared he'd been to kill the Doctor, even though he hadn't wanted to because he was a human. He thinks of Kurama, who'd been forced to kill a ten-year-old boy because Sensui had set it up so that the fate of the planet rested on getting that ten-year-old boy out of their way. It's not always as simple as just doing what's good or nice. When it comes down to life or death, you do what you have to do to get the job done, even if it means compromising your morals. Maybe that was how it was for Blake. Yusuke would like to believe that it was, at least. The alternative makes his blood run cold.
That said, whatever it was that Blake had done, it's clearly messing with him now. And while that doesn't absolve him of guilt, it does make it hard for Yusuke to judge him or feel angry with him, even with the knowledge that the "bad thing" he'd done might not have actually been necessary. Maybe if he feels bad about it now, that means there's a chance he can do better in the future. Blake might not think people can start over, but Yusuke knows that isn't true. As long as you want to start over, you can start over. Yusuke genuinely believes that.
When Yusuke speaks up again, his voice is quiet. He's leaned back in his seat now, his arms folded across his chest. The look on his face is still slightly unreadable, but he's no longer looking at Blake - rather, he's gazing up towards the ceiling, in a way that would seem thoughtful if he weren't still wearing that poker face.]
Y'know, I know some guys who've done bad things. I'm not talking small stuff, either, like getting shitfaced in public or spray painting dicks on walls.
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But then Yusuke thinks of the hospital, and how prepared he'd been to knock out every single person there in order to suss out the Doctor before his virus could wipe out the entire building - how prepared he'd been to kill the Doctor, even though he hadn't wanted to because he was a human. He thinks of Kurama, who'd been forced to kill a ten-year-old boy because Sensui had set it up so that the fate of the planet rested on getting that ten-year-old boy out of their way. It's not always as simple as just doing what's good or nice. When it comes down to life or death, you do what you have to do to get the job done, even if it means compromising your morals. Maybe that was how it was for Blake. Yusuke would like to believe that it was, at least. The alternative makes his blood run cold.
That said, whatever it was that Blake had done, it's clearly messing with him now. And while that doesn't absolve him of guilt, it does make it hard for Yusuke to judge him or feel angry with him, even with the knowledge that the "bad thing" he'd done might not have actually been necessary. Maybe if he feels bad about it now, that means there's a chance he can do better in the future. Blake might not think people can start over, but Yusuke knows that isn't true. As long as you want to start over, you can start over. Yusuke genuinely believes that.
When Yusuke speaks up again, his voice is quiet. He's leaned back in his seat now, his arms folded across his chest. The look on his face is still slightly unreadable, but he's no longer looking at Blake - rather, he's gazing up towards the ceiling, in a way that would seem thoughtful if he weren't still wearing that poker face.]
Y'know, I know some guys who've done bad things. I'm not talking small stuff, either, like getting shitfaced in public or spray painting dicks on walls.